Opening doors.

Today I closed the doors on the store I had been running. That leaves me without a work home. I will cover other stores while the people running them take a vacation. Then I will start in another store. The least productive store, also the least supported. We'll see how it goes. If I can make something happen there I'll be some kind of a hero. If I don't I imagine running two stores into the ground won't look so good.

Now really, I'm sure I could have done better, you can always do better. But my numbers were just as good as anyone Else's, just higher rent and a store that had a pita problem because of location.

So, onto the point of the post. Change. So as seems to be the case with the rest of my life I'm surrounded by change but yet nothing has started. No direction has emerged. I'm simply waiting for the rest of the shit to hit the fan. And it will. I'm hoping sooner than later. I'm anxious for a future to emerge. I just think the past has to finish going away first.

And it's not just waiting for things to take shape, there will be a process to put the past to rest. I'm really thinking I've got a solid year of making the past go away. It's kinda a like taking refuge during a hurricane. You know the worst part of the storm has passed, but at some point you have open the door and deal with the mess. So I've opened that door, and it's a mess.

They say that with every door you pass through there are new possibilities. And I agree because quite possibly this sucks.