Double Post

I feel like I am stealing from tomorrow. Take that time!! Or wait is that the wrong direction?

So when I'm single, I get creative. I do creative things. When I'm with someone I wilt. Soul suckers.

Anyway, starting to play guitar a bit again. It's frustrating getting back on that bicycle. Fingertips hurt, fingers seem much fatter, and the rhythm is gone. But slowly it comes back. Once it does the songwriting does too. I wonder if I'll actually finish a song before I forget it this go around. The wonders of ADD. What's fun about starting anew is that I often integrate what I felt was missing. I'm not as adept but somehow I think I always come back better. Now if I'd just take shorter breaks between goes.

Starting and stopping, much like life. You head in one direction so long and when you stop to take a breath, you just have to scratch your head, wondering if you went anywhere at all. is it really just a treadmill? You can be running your ass off, you stop for just a second, and the sucker who ain't done shit is right there, except seemingly smiling a little more easily. Life.

Well not to get biblical, but in genesis, misinterpreted, is the true goal of life. Self actualization. Just being the you that god intended, and then sharing that. Your life is just the yoke to the you that is the chicken embryo. yet we often tend to drown in the yoke instead of draw nourishment and sustenance from it. We mess it all up. I think, the older I get, it becomes clearer that we mess it up for no reason at all.

So, drawing meaning from life. We look outside of ourselves. We need to look inside to what makes us happy and brings us comfort. Try to take the long view and big picture it, I'd hate to see someone load up on heroin. But I don't think we listen to the cues around us. Did you wonder why when you feel good how in sync with the world around you you are. and how discordant everything feels when you don't feel so good. We don't listen well. We lose our rhythm. We stop writing our song.